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Jessie Jis opening up about living with loss aftersuffering a miscarriage in November 2021.
Early on Friday, the “Price Tag” singer, 34, got candid about the grief she still feels 9 months later, penning an emotional note onInstagramalongside two pictures of her, one when she was younger and one now
She continued in her message, hoping that her struggles would allow others to know they’re not alone. “I know it’s healthy and normal to have days of complete sadness and to honor all the feelings that come up, good and bad,” Jessie J wrote. “The bad isn’t often at all and yes I could go through this moment right now today alone in private and usually do, but today I am here. Because I know thousands of people around the 🌎 feel just like I do.”
The British star, born Jessica Cornish, ended her message, “Maybe you read this and feel the love I have for you. I hope you can. Connecting is key. Hugging you all 🤍”
Jessie J first announced her miscarriage ina now-deleted Instagram postshared while on stage prior toher Nov. 24 performanceat The Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles.
After feeling out of whack at the beginning of the pregnancy, Jessie J woke up one November morning and said to herself, “Oh, I don’t feel right.”
“I still had very intense nausea, [but] I just knew something wasn’t the same,” explained the songstress, who later called a doctor to get checked out.
Jessie J said she sensed something was wrong after “that dreadful silence when you first have a scan and they kind of don’t say anything.”
After receiving the news, Jessie J said she cried to herself on the street outside the doctor’s office. That’s when a man approached her with words of encouragement.
“[He] said, ‘This is happening because you’re supposed to talk about this. You’re supposed to help other people.’ And instead of going to get blood, I got in my car and I said, ‘I’m going to get a second opinion.’ "
Afterward, Jessie J spoke with a member of her team about whether or not to continue with her shows as scheduled — andshe did.
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“I remember just going [home] and not processing it,” she said. “… And then the next day I went straight into glam, I did the soundcheck and I got on stage.”
That’s when she made the announcement on Instagram. “I posted it because I didn’t have anyone to break on,” she recalled. “I didn’t have anyone to just fall apart on, and that’s what I needed, that’s what I wanted.”
“That was the worst moment of the whole experience, was me realizing that, other than my career, being a mother and having a child has been the biggest excitement of my life,” Jessie J said. “Like, I’ve always been super maternal. I love children. … I felt like I’d been given everything I’d ever wanted and then someone had gone, ‘But you can’t have it.’ "
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Despite the sad experience, Jessie J believes “the reason it happened was because I wasn’t supposed to do it alone.”
“I’m supposed to find someone that wants this as much as I do,” she said. “I’m grateful that I got to experience being pregnant, it’s opened the door for me to love myself deeper. I’m still processing the whole thing. I have moments of intense sadness and grief, but I also have moments of excitement, knowing that I won’t do it alone.”
source: people.com
