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TheSister Wivesstar, 45, opens up about the aspects of plural marriage that she misses now that her former sister wives have ended their relationships with Brown family patriarchKody Brown.

“What I liked a lot about living plural marriage was the team effort, where I had sister wives,” she exclusively tells PEOPLE, sharing how she “really wanted that camaraderie” andsense of “sisterhood"in addition to her marriage to Kody, 54.

Robyn Brown, Meri Brown, Kody Brown, Christine Brown and Janelle Brown from “Sister Wives” arrive at the grand opening of Mike Tyson’s one-man show “Mike Tyson: Undisputed Truth - Live on Stage”

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“I wanted that experience of my sister wives loving my children and being able to love their children and feeling like this kind ofbig, happy family, big group of peoplethat really cared about each other,” she continues. “So that’s what I liked about it.”

“It looks a little different,” she says of the family’s current dynamics. “I sure hope it’s possible, but I can’t have expectations. I can’t put expectations on people, I’m realizing more and more, as far as family and that connection and spending time together and stuff and operating kind of a family. So I hope and I pray that it’s possible, but that will be that a situation where everybody has to choose that. So I don’t know.”

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Within a span of 14 months, three of theSister Wivespatriarch’s marriages imploded. Kody’s third wife,Christine Brown, was thefirst to leavein November 2021. A year later in December 2022, it was revealed that he hadseparatedfrom his second wifeJanelle Brown. A month after that, his union with first wifeMeri Brownwasconfirmedin January after the pair’s relationship had beenplatonicand distant for years.

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“I don’t know what to do with it. It’s messing with my identity,” she continued during the special before bursting into tears. “It’snot the future I wanted. I want that house with us on the porch in the rocking chairs with our grandkids and our kids around us. You know, the grandparent ranch. That’s what I want.”

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source: people.com